Sharing
my final musings in my final months
in Universiti Putra Malaysia (2006-2016).
in Universiti Putra Malaysia (2006-2016).
Someone
asked me: How do you feel after you have converted to Islam? I answered: I feel free.
How do you feel after you have been deprived of your rights? I answered: I feel free.
How do you feel being thrown into the middle of the ocean? I answered: I feel
free. How do you feel being pushed down from a 24 story building? I answered: I feel
free. How do you feel when you are left on your own searching for the meaning
of life and quest for knowledge? I answered: I feel free. How do you feel being
an immigrant? I answered: I feel free.
Then the
person said: But why my friend???
Aren’t you feeling, depressed, frustrated, hurtful and fearful??? I really really don’t understand you!!! Do you still want to be a Muslimah? What about your children, aren’t they a load? See what Islam has done to you? Are you really happy?Can you please tell me why before your studying months end???
Aren’t you feeling, depressed, frustrated, hurtful and fearful??? I really really don’t understand you!!! Do you still want to be a Muslimah? What about your children, aren’t they a load? See what Islam has done to you? Are you really happy?Can you please tell me why before your studying months end???
Finally I
just smiled and answered: Of course I am deeply hurt, no one can deny it as I
am a normal person but I really really feel the freedom through submitting to
God. Yes, of course, I still want to be a Muslimah and I am still learning to feel the
serenity, strength and beauty of freedom living in God’s realm because Islam has set me
free…the Quran is my life-jacket, the Prophet and his companions are my inspiration;
my children are my lighthouse and of course, I am happy. I am the happiest Mommy in the world and you, my dear friend, you will
understand me the moment you feel what true freedom means in
Islam; and you will feel free from depression, frustration, hurt and fear
because God will set you free..
Thank you
Allah for your endless blessings!!!!!
"...Truly my Lord is with me, He will Guide me through."(Q26:62)
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